Counting The Days

I never thought I would get back to this page. At this point, I am starting to count the days – working days left for me to spend here in Schneider Electric. It is a mixed of emotions I am in at this point, excited about leaving and sad about leaving my friends behind. I have to move on though, friendship remains anyway.

Uncertainties, doubts, fears I can’t help but feel them sometimes but I know at the end of the day I just need to trust – the moment, the process, those people who support me and most of all Him Who knows exactly where I should land at.

Sad About Coko’s Death

Three months ago, we welcomed Coko to our home to become our baby pet dog. He was quite scandalous then maybe because he was not used to being tied up until he learned the thing.

Two weeks after he had a companion, his sister whom we named as Maja but after two days she has gone – somebody might have taken her away. Several days after, Coko’s neck became swollen, I tried putting on a medicine and massage him. After a few hours, he did fine.

This morning, hubby shouted at me when he was about to leave for work that Coko is gone. He died. Maybe he was really sick as he has not eating well in the past few days. We even suspected that he was bitten by some big rats.

May you rest in peace Coko, we’re really sad about it. 😦

 

 

 

New Workstation

We’ve been squatting for almost a month I think as our old office was under renovation. Just today we were asked to the old room – old space but with new ambience.

Our team is now confined in one section of the room with twelve cubicles for staff and two enclosed offices for our bossess.

I am happy about as I really believe that working environment really contributes to an employees enthusiasm to work .

Now I guess it’s more conducive except that we now have to walk farther when we have to go to the comfort rooms and to the canteen.

my working table

Discriminated Me

Lately, I felt the world has deprived me of fairness as I became a victim of discrimination. I was left out not knowing the real reasons behind. I don’t know to whom I should believe in. My questions remain not clearly answered. Issues raised were not given attention and yet unresolved till this time.

I guess it is but the result of politics at work. Sometimes you will really feel bitter about things or even worst – you will be misinterpreted and you will come out as the accused person instead.

I just hope in time people would know the real meaning of the word “fair” it may be short and simple but it weighs as heavy as your conscience.

Finally…

Processing……..

Already in progress……..

Guess what?

It’s a carreer move where I just exercise my responsibility on mobility as an employee.

It’s a choice, a decision I have chosen.

No one’s to be blame.

I am just hoping that I made the right choice and that it’s leading me through the right path.

Still keeping my fingers crossed on this.

Constantly praying that I would find peace where I can see myself not complaining most of the time.

Nothing much will change.

And I know I will always be grateful about how I have reached this instance.

To all those people who have guided and trained me all this time, Thank you so much.

I’m Late

I ain’t late reporting for work, as I have never been tardy since I became an employee of Schneider Electric.

I ain’t late submitting reports as well, as I am overly deadline conscious.

But I guess, I have been late deciding for myself.

Before I knew it, what I am targeting has been picked already.

It is now closed as somebody filled it.

Yet I still have a choice and now I am thinking futher and I guess I would be thinking a lot more of it over the weekend.

Lord, I need signs…  Please send me one… Thanks…

Working Anniversary

Yes, I have already reached my first year here at my fourth employer.

If you’ll ask me how I’m feelling, well I must say just normal. Nothing is new. Nothing is extraordinary.

But what does this anniversary bring me?

I still am at blank. Not knowing which road to take as I am not yet aware where each way could lead me to.

But this time, I am being surrounded by a lot of opportunities which I am thinking if I would grab or not.

Do I have enough of capacity to step up?

Do I deserve some sort of advancement or career growth?

Would it be still here or should I look for another outside?

Till this time, I am asking for signs.

Lord, thank you for the chance. Thy Will Be Done!

Ash Wednesday

I am just so glad that we will be having our Ash Wednesday Mass Celebration in the office.

At least we do not need to chase after some parishes scheduled mass anticipating bulk of people who would like to witness being marked with blessed ash on their forehead.It has been an annual tradition of the Catholic church which signifies the beginning of the Lenten Season.During ash wednesday we are being asked to undergo fasting and abstinence.

In there we are bound to hear the phrase “repent and believe in the gospel” as the holy ash is being applied in between the eyebrows.

Why?

This weekdays that passed had put a lot of pressures on me. Chasing after the reporting deadlines, attending to some miscellaneous office matters and training my new colleagues.

I guess that was a sort of challenge on me once more. I know myself as simply perfectionist and there are times when I really can’t stop acting that way.

I have asked myself again, why? Can’t I really become a teacher? Am I poor in giving instructions? Or is it that I am trying to myself in another’s personality as what a friend old me?

I almost ran out of patience and I am hoping not to encounter such negative perception, again.

Busy… Too Busy…

It’s month-end once again. A moment where all the office pressures unite.

Every month-end, a lot of ill feelings coming out.

I feel a pain in my chest, my shoulders, sometimes in my tummy.

I am having an intense headache.I am bleeding at times. I feel mentally tortured. I feel negative.

I don’t know if these things were still an “it’s all in the mind thing”.

But I guess that’s how an accountant is destined to live.

Chasing after deadlines of the month-end reporting, dealing with the numbers most of the time.

Can I be an actress instead or a super model? Nahhh…

This is reality… this is my life… sigh!